Things have been looking up lately regardless of all the bad that has happened to my family and friends.
Lately I have been able to spend more time worrying about my self instead of everyone else. I know that may sound really selfish or rude, but for those who don't know me I worry about everything and just about everyone. It is a genetic trait that apparently I have managed to inherit from my dad.
I have been spending the last couple of months praying for things to get better and worrying about everyone.
What made me stop? One word...... drama.
In my almost 30 years of life I have learned many valuable lessons in life about trust, caring about others, and when your friendship with someone really means something or not.
To be honest I sometimes stick my head where it doesn't belong. Everybody does that at some point in time or another.This time I wish I would have thought about it more before doing it.
When I am concerned about a friend or family member I do stick my nose in their business sometimes. It is more or less me telling them that they are being incredibly stupid or getting into trouble and should avoid it.
That's just what I did. I stuck my nose in the business of someone who I thought was a friend because I was worried that with this person's actions they could loose their job. They took serious offense and made someone else tell me that it was none of my business and to stop sticking my nose in his/her and an others affairs. Earlier that week when I talked to this person they had told me that anyone who messes with their affairs will lose job. "I will have his/her job"
What does that translate to? This individual threatened my job whether he/she realized it or not.
Part of my mistake was not addressing this person directly. Instead I went through someone who I thought was also a friend. That was a "big" mistake. This "friend" didn't even really give me a chance to let her/him know that I was hearing people using her/his name as an information source for very hurtful gossip. Some of which I had heard from said "friend" directly myself. Whether or not this person was truly responsible or not doesn't matter. I really wanted to warn this "friend" to stop talking about everything with whoever he cared to divulge information to. Knowing that it should have already triggered a red flag. I should have just cut my loses before saying anything at all.
Immediately after I received the message to get my nose of of said person/s business: I decided to remove individuals in question from my facebook, ditched any phone numbers I had, and have since been ignoring the situation and persons involved all together.
I had been in a similar situation to individual/s position, but at the other end of the stick. I was the one having horrible things said about me both in the workplace and out off it by an ex roommate and an ex boyfriend. Sadly I had no choice at that time but to leave and seek employment elsewhere because the company policy allowed me to continue being bullied.
Do I regret having tried to tell this friend I was worried about his/her job? YES. I regret it because now I am worried that these people will be gunning for me since I have brushed them off. Even worse yet I fear that they will not be nice to party that delivered me the message.
Am I happy to have done it? YES.
With all the drama I have experienced I have learned a very valuable lesson.
-If your friends cannot take your opinion for what it is worth regardless of how brutally honest and in their face it is.... they are not your friends. If they cannot tell you themselves that they have a problem with you... they are stuck in high school drama and either wish to stay there or allow others too keep them there.
The best way to handle a situation like that is to just throw in the rag and call it quits. Don't go around telling names and only say what's on your mind. if you feel the need in order to let off steam make sure you don't mention any one's name. Don't say "she" or "he" if at all possible.
Just because someone you know gossips about a person and gives out names doesn't give you any right to continue their ways and hurt people regardless of what they have said about you or anyone else.
That is how things should be handled. Adults tell their friends and family when they are doing something that could have serious consequences. They know better than go around telling everyone others deepest darkest secrets. Eventually it all boils down to karma.
Keep that in mind next time you care about someone. Do you want them to know you care and realize they don't? Or........ would you rather keep it a mystery and not say a word?
Between making sure that I avoid any problems so I don't lose my job and taking care of my Fibromyalgia I have been one "void" person and cannot seem to worry about any one or anything except "numero uno". My self preservation and instincts have made me selfish as of late. I want my "BEST" friends as close as possible to help seal the black hole of trust that was left gaping wide open.
Speaking of Fibromyalgia if you or anyone one you know uses CVS CareMark for prescription coverage do not be surprised if you go to fill your medications for nerve pain and the pharmacist tells you that CVS is refusing to cover your script without your doctor calling them and telling them why you need it. Some of those are spending. My drugstore offered to fill it for me out of pocket, but they wanted $160!!!! There was no way I could afford it.
The last few days I have been having intermittent nerve pain to the point of being so annoyed I have been snapping at just about anyone. Then today while at work my hands decided they no longer wanted to work. They went completely numb, started to turn purple, and I couldn't move my fingers!
That was not cool. Numbness and nerve pain are known side affects of with draw from the medications, but I wasn't expecting that.
When I get a chance to call CVS and bitch I am going to do so immediately.
What would have happened if I had been driving a car instead of sitting at a desk?
I could have wrecked. Worse I could have died from a wreck!
I understand that insurance and prescription drug plans are trying to save money, but don't you think that they should check what "could" happen if they refuse to cover it? Apparently they don't care about having to pay out more because someone might get hurt badly and has to be hospitalized.
If you use Lyrica call CVS CareMark at least 2 weeks before your next refill and make sure they refuse to fill before you find out the hard way.
So there you have it. Don't be stupid and tell someone what you need to say to someone else you think you can trust. Also be aware of withdraw side effects of nerve medication. Remember when you worry about others it can bite you in the ass. It is important sometimes to worry about yourself instead of friends and family from time to time.
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