Update on Fibromyalgia.... not going so well.

As of late things have not been going that great for me and my Fibromyalgia.
I have been struggling to keep my job, but the FMS is winning.
I keep getting splitting headaches from phosphate buildup breaking loose from my head and flushing out.
It keeps trying to come out in clumps so I have been getting sinus infections and ear infections one after the other. I've been having to miss way too much work and my paychecks have been really low.
The HR department at work is trying to get me approved for the ADA act so that I can keep my job and not have to worry about it as much.
Money has been tight lately and a lot of people my boyfriend and I love very much will not
be able to get Christmas gifts.
Lucky for us most of our loved ones are pretty understanding and are not worried about it..... still it
makes me feel bad. I feel that in a way all of this is my fault. If I didn't have this illness I would not have to be missing so much work.  Missing less work would mean more money.

I am trying very hard to get things back on track, but some days I just feel like I don't have the energy to do anything. A lot of my time has been wasted in bed resting or lounging on the couch.  Sometimes the headaches keep me awake and I can't sleep. It is very tiresome. I feel like I am not all mentally present at home or at work.

I am so very lucky to have such a wonderful boyfriend and family that are here to support and help me through this difficult stage.
I hope my job came come through and get me the help I need.

My prescription drug plan is also giving me problems. They are refusing to cover one of the medications I need most. Without their coverage It is $180 out of pocket. My parents have been generous enough to pay for it. I am waiting to see if I can get prescription drug assistance through the manufacturer of said medication. I got a good 10 page booklet I need to get filled out.

I thought that my head had cleared up a long time ago. I had no idea that it had not. I would never wish this illness even upon my worse enemy.

I ask that you my readers please pray for and show compassion for anyone you know that has Fibromyalgia.

The one phrase that has been even giving me strength to do what I can is "Once the going gets tough; the tough get going."
I was made this way for a reason. I believe that God has a plan for me and all of this pain is him making me stronger and tougher, ready to face whatever comes my way.

Thinking of my readers out there and hoping all is well. Be thankful for what you have this holiday season. Remember that there is always someone else who is less fortunate.